I Want This Feeling to Stay With Me Forever.

Forget everything I said about Shane. It's not that he's a bad person, it's just the fact that he's going out with Casey! I'm happy for her though. They're totally cute together. Besides that nothing's really new with me. I just havn't updated in a long time because nothing happened! This whole last week I've been coaching tennis. It's so frustrating! You have to explain everything 100 times to these little kids. It was great and they left Tara and me alone while we were on our lunch break untill Taegen found out I was babysitting her on Friday. She like latched onto my arm and wouldn't let go the whole time! Everytime we had to pick up the balls she would run over to me and drag me over to her court and force me to help her. On Friday when I babysat her it wasn't much better!The one exciting thing that happened this week was when Tara and I went swimming. As we were walking in we saw Daniel. He graduated this year and in my personal opinion I think he's a cutie. Tara doesn't think so. Anyways he came over and said Hi and everything but after that he kinda left us alone. But a few hours later he came up to us and started talking. He spent the rest of the time with us. He invited us to his lake party on friday. I was so excited! A hottie finally asked me to a party! Sucks that I couldn't go though. He hugged me in this really nice was and his whole body kind of tightened. He wispered in my ear and said that he really hoped I could come and how it was so weird to see me there and how he would probably never see me again. He was right about that. It was the nicest hug I've had in a long time. My dream guy'll hug me like that.

And That's All It Is.

Today is the first day of summer break. It was pretty lame compaired to yesterday. I didn't really want to go to school yesterday. It was only a half day but I had to anyways. Instead of skipping and going downtown to the river like everyone else I had to stay at school because I had to do a lab. So I rode the bus home. I was all pissed off about it too. I was going to break up with my boyfriend but I couldn't because... I don't even remember why I didn't. He gave me a really ugly gorrilla stuffed animal after school. It was seriously ugly. As soon as I got on the bus I dropped it in a seat where no one was sitting. Leon asked me if it was mine. I said no. That's how totally made out. Woops. But he's just Lucas. I don't like him like I did before. I seriously use to be obsessed with that guy. So instead of trying to figure out my guy situation I just made it worse.

Flavor of the Week.

Today was confusing. It all started on Thursday though. In Robotics Shane was being more flirty then usual. I can't explain it but there was deffinatly something happening between us. Since we have a block schedule, I didn't see him again untill today. Today he was all over me. Ok maybe not all over me but he was deffinatly talking to me more than usual. He sat next to me and we talked. During lunch A we asked if we could go "to the nurse". We skipped and went to lunch A. Before we got to the lunchroom he went and talked to Oliver, his best friend. Oliver asked who all was going to lunch with us and Shane said "Just me and Becca". I dunno. The way he was talking to me kinda made it seem like he likes me. After lunch A we went back to Robotics. He had a football and we were throwing it around. We got yelled at and sat down in our chairs. He pulled mine really close to his so that his knees were touching mine. He pulled out his cell phone and was playing with it for a little bit before he put in on the desk right next to me, kinda like he wanted me to put my number in it. I waited for a little bit. I really wanted to put my number in there buttt I have a boyfriend. I don't know how Robert would react to that. We were just sitting there talking and tossing the football back and forth. I hadn't put my number in his phone. Then out of the blue he was like "Can I have your number?" I got butterflys in my stomache (Not good! I have a boyfriend!) and put my number in there. At our real lunch (lunch B) I saw Shane again. Only this time I was with Robert. I didn't actually notice him there for the first 3 minuets. Shane that is. I was off talking to Bria and I didn't know where Robert was. He was wrestling Shane to get his football. It was so aqward. Robert wanted to kiss me but I didn't want to kiss him infront of Shane! I kind of like Shane more than I like my boyfriend. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. The bell rang. I always give Robert a kiss before I leave. But I still had the Shane problem. Luckly I saw Cady walking by and I stoped her and talked to her FOREVER. Robert stood around waiting for a bit but eventually he left. So did Shane. I don't know. Im going to break up with Robert. I was going to before the whole Shane thing started. I would never see him over summer break. I barley see him as it is.

The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows.

Juila turned in her boyfriend Steve for doing drugs at school and having them. He went and said that it was her fault he had them. So she had to empty out her whole locker and purse. I don't like him. He treats her like crap and she just sits there and takes it. Then when he's gone she complains about it. I'm so tired of it. He stole my iPod too. He's just a dick. I was talking to Joe about Julia. She lies so much. According to Joe and Dicker she told him that she cuts herself. She claims she would never do something like that. Personally I believe Joe. I have to talk to her about it though. And then I heard that Karina's boyfriend cheats on her all the time with sluts. Even the sluts say he doesn't deserve her. And I agree! Karina is the sweetest girl I know. She could get any guy she wanted. She doesn't need Andrew.